A new way of thinking

My thoughts always held me back.  I thought...I can't do this or that, I am not as good as ____, I would never be able to _____.  All this thinking did nothing for me, but create a world where things were impossible.  Finding faith, self-esteem and yoga has helped me to release the creative part of me that has been waiting to burst out.

When I am making anything...the outside world stops and creativity comes in and takes over.  I never know what the end result will be when I start putting materials on my table.  Sometimes the final product is miles from the original thought process.  It is like a mystery or a puzzle which I love.

I am a fixer...I love fixing things...and I am able to fix a lot of jewelry.  It is a great feeling to restring something or repair something someone really likes.  I just love that part.

I have endured some troubling times in life, as everyone has, and I find it very cathartic to be able to pour myself into making prayer beads or rosaries.  Some time ago I lost my daughter in a custody war...our relationship was the casualty.  I found a community of others who have endured similar fates. I decided to come up with a productive way to heal and grow and possibly help others.  I contacted a shop owner on Etsy who makes metal jewelry.  I am having her make something for me that will hopefully become an item that will be very meaningful to the mothers or guardians who lost their children to similar circumstances of alienation and deception.

I am collaborating with my fellow Etsy shop owner to create a one-of-a-kind necklace that I want to call a "healing heart necklace".  Each heart is forged from copper wire, shaped and hammered and then torch painted.  How appropriate that the heart is hammered and fire painted...isn't that what happened to our hearts through this horrible process?  I want to add charms to the center of the heart that will represent the place in our hearts that is being held for that missing child, children, or other person we may have lost.

We will never forget, but we must learn to forgive.  Maybe someone would like to have a charm that is for their own precious heart, their own faith, their heart, their trust, freedom from abuse, a birthstone of a child, or some other meaningful remembrance marked by a charm of the buyers choosing.

Working on this project makes me feel very empowered and as though I have a connection in some way to the child I remember, the bond we had, and a reminder that we are still bound in faith and love of God.

I hope you will let me know what you think and let me know if I can make one of these for you or someone you love.

Soon to be added to my Etsy Shop

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